Evidently, I survived my first week back in school. After a year hiatus, I returned to finish my last classes. If everything goes according to plan I will be able to graduate the end of spring. It’s strange to be back in school. I fear that I will fall behind because I have somewhat forgotten how to “do school.” I don’t want my anxieties to control me and am doing everything I can to gain a sense of control over them. I don’t really like to ask for help, in fact, I hate it. However, my motto for 2019 was centered around learning how to ask for help and understanding that it’s okay to do so. No one is perfect and no one is invincible. I am doing my best to stay optimistic and support a healthy environment for myself. I have been working out almost every day which has been really nice. I like the person looking back at me in the mirror and that is a nice change. I am doing my best to avoid toxic energies and that has also been helpful. Most days, I wake up and feel blessed simply to be alive and I am finding that with the sunflowers in bloom & the sweet summer breeze that there is so much to feel grateful for.
All the good comes in waves.